Ikut hati,MATI

the feeling of loneliness comes around..

i miss my family so much..those who never fail to love me..

For now, i want to live for them. To give my life to the fullest, only for their happiness..

Mama,abah, i wont let you down..i wont..kakak nk belajar betul2..kakak janji.

oh Allah, i miss them so much..
i want to be a good daughter & a good servant of Yours..

insyaAllah..

Ya Allah, berikan aku secebis kasih sayangMu, kegembiraan & kerahmatanMu..

p/s:niat di hati nak buat blog baru: A journey of a street smart girl. Tapi nmpaknye belum layak utk itu.

cinta

"cinta yang agong itu adalah satu pengorbanan
tak ramai yang sanggup berkorban untuk orang yang dia cintai"

-a quote from 'Selamat Pagi Cinta'

nice & deep. kan?

life & future

mase keje, keje
masa lapang,uruskan ape yang patut
FOCUS + dreaminG~ =)

terus!tapi kene betul!go!!!haha

ketika berumur 22 belum masuk 23
fasa hidup banyak krisis
fasa hidup banyak konflik
ada datang ada pergi
x boleh lari
kene hadapi
x boleh, kene buat boleh
xtahu,kene tahu
diri nak mase
diri nk ruang
diri nk sayang
diri nak faham
diri kene faham
ada yang boleh ada yang x boleh
ada suke yang duka
ade duka yang suka
suka untuk siapa?
hati kosong
hati terisi
kosong kembali
ada yang x kena
tak terisi dgn yang abadi
hati kotor
hati sendiri
taubat nasuha masih dicari
kuat hati
baru menjadi
nak kuat
sampai mati
nak teman
mimpi hampir2 realiti
situasi perlu dibaiki
rosak salah sendiri
pandai2 la bawak diri
insyaAllah hidup pjg lagi
selagi Allah sayang
selagi ada masa
selagi boleh
kuat hati
kuat diri
nak Allah ada di sisi
nak Allah kekasih hati
jauh tersimpang
ada peluang lagi
Suntikkan dalam hati
sepanjang hidup mengabdi diri
wahai hati
kuat
wahai iman
aku perlu engkau

why moon is so lonely?

because the Moon has a lover before. His name is Kuekuetsu. They are really happy being together, in the spirit world.There is a guy named Trixter who jealous to Kuekuetsu because he cant win Moon's heart. Trixter lied to Kuekuetsu, telling him that Moon want to have a flower that can only be picked up on earth. Because of his love to the Moon, Kuekuetsu go down to earth to pick up the flower for her, without knowing that he can't come back to spirit world once he go down to earth.
Since then, he howl the Moon every night, with all the feel of missing and he never can touch her again.
& the love remains..
Kuekuetsu means Wolverine.

020309:banca i-save=fizik

i face a problem now.
i cant focus.
seriously.
all my kerje seems so lembab.
huh
actually i dont like the product i buat right now.
keep on trying to re-arrange my work to make it tersusun
but then tahla
need to stay back kot
mengahambakan diri to something yg kite x suke.
huh
lepas abes ni,abes la penyeksaan
perasaan ni mase blajar fixik dulu
seriously
gile x suke.
tp kene jugak.
aduh.
cmni la rase die
sebijik
dulu boleh nk tido dalam kelas,ignoring the teacher & my classmate
pastu xm, bace sket2, jwb ikut suke
tp skg dh x boleh.
seriously
malas2
xleh focus.
xleh la cmni
syaz!!!!!1

Reality

sometimes
a very2 cute, beautiful and lovely story can make our day sad..
when the beauty of the story might somehow turn to be ugly someday because of you..
i mean it.

"Only he can understand what a farm is, what a country is, who shall have sacrificed part of himself to his farm or country, fought to save it, struggled to make it beautiful. Only then will the love of farm or country fill his heart."

Antoine de Saint-Exupery (1900-1944) French aviator and writer.

"Sacrificing your happiness for the happiness of the one you love, is by far, the truest type of love.”

Unknown

"To ease another's heartache is to forget one's own."

Abraham Lincoln

May Allah bless us & everyone~

tu je.

semalam aku tengok Cerita Artis Malaysia(CAM)

& aku just nak ckp dari dulu lagi, aku mmg minat Erra Fazira.

Tu je.

Terima Kaseh.

L.O.V.E

sepasang pasangan india melewati aku

mesra, manis sangat..

perasaan CINTA sedang membuai mereka

melangkah masuk ke lrt

seorang anak lelaki bersandar pada ayahnya

kelihatannya seperti keletihan

comel..manja sangat..

itulah SAYANG

berjalan pulang

budak2 baru balek sekolah

seorang ibu..

nampak penat,mungkin baru balek keje..

memimpin si anak

mendengar pulak celoteh2nya

tersenyum..

itulah KASIH

perasaan itu

kuasanya hebat

cinta,kasih,sayang

definisinya lebih dari itu

tidak bermaksud cinta hanya untuk memiliki

tiada maknanya sayang jika hanya nafsu semata

hilanglah hikmah kasih jika tidak tahu apa nilainya pengorbanan

even hidupnya kita di dunia ini atas kasih sayang & belas kasihan dariNya..

kui percaya diriku

dalam kegelapan gerhana melimpahku
ku berseorangan melayari laut yang biru
menanti detik indah yang kupasti kan tiba
waktuku menuju kearah yang bahagia
kerna kulupakan
kisah dusta
ku percaya diriku
tentukan demi masa depan
ku percaya hatiku sendiri
oh..
ku percaya diriku walaupun adanya cabaran
ku percaya hatiku sendiri
dalam kesesakan dan kesuntukan masa
ku hadapi rintangan barulah ku cari jawapan
adakah ini demi mengejar mimpi yang dicita
usah ku berlawan
namun ku melepaskan kerna
ini hanya
kisah dusta...


*semangat! =)

Roses Neverfull

Approved!!!

i don't know how to describe the happiness when i got email from BNM telling that the product i'm working on all this while is approved!
and when i got thumb up from my CEO, bestnye~
the feeling was so amazing!=))
and i am so lucky tohave such incredible officemate, sgt supportive!
thank you everyone of you.
someone tell me that this is where the theory become reality..=)

life?

dlm graph kehidupan, skg ni aku ade kt slope tau, nk menurun ke menaik...how i want the graph to be..hard to decide kan?menaik x semestinye yg terbaek, & menurun not always the wrong one..
hmmmm..aku memerlukan bantuan dr DIA. Bantulah aku.
pagi2 bgn, lagu yg ttbe dtg dlm otak aku~

umat islam harus cemerlang

hari ini mesti lebih baek dr smlm

jgn buang masa

siapa kata kita tidak boleh

kita ada Allah maha kuasa

kita punya kuasa tenaga

doa sebagai senjata

huu~
regarding my last post, i think i found myself, but the different one..time flies,things change right?..hmmmm~

good luck everyone!live life to the fullest & let nobody stop you.

searching for myself back.

hilang.

i lose myself.

i feel like i don't know myself.

where is Syazwani?

hmmm..

life been so hard lately..

work,personal, everything seems messed up,internally.But still,exernally,under control.

jgn pening ngn ayat aku ek.

hmmm..

Allah...

hati ni seperti keras..

Syazwani seakan2 hilang..

but i believe she'll come back.

she needs time to adapt, searching herself & handle everything correctly..

give her a chance..

=)

its already 10 years..

25 Januari 1999.

Hari yg penuh dgn sejarah.Kami semua melangkah ke Sekolah Menengah Sultan Abdul Halim. Kami menjadi sahabat.Mengharung suka duka bersama.Sama membenci sama mencintai.

Di situ kami mula mengenal erti kehidupan. Erti survival. Erti persahabatan. Erti semangat setiakawan. Erti pengorbanan, kesetiaan, kepahitan, kesakitan, & kesungguhan. Indahnya ketika 10 tahun yang lalu..
Now, we keep it as our greatest memories..forever..

to all my jenan 9903 friends,

To the girls & also boys...to every one of you..

happy 10th years of friendship..

All of you have taught me something that i will never forget..

Hope this great friendship remains till the end..

insyaAllah..

love you all!

p/s:deepest congrates for those who arrange the reunion dinner.And also sorry from the bottom of my heart because i cannot make it there~

Nor Ayuni, Nadia Nadira, Normazliza & of course,Syazwani Rosli.
Ni la 4 org yg mmg confuse & selekeh arini.
today sgt best sbenarnye. hang out dgn kwn2 ku(name yg tersebut di ats) di OU.
mkn.borak2.gosip2.gelak.tgk wyg.mkn lg.borak lagi.gosip lg.gelak lg.
tp bile nk balek sume x igt kete ktne.siap mtk tlg budak security cr kete yunie.
siap dh bergenang air mate si yunie membygkan ayah die marah kalu kete hlg.haha!!
kitaorg jmpe after sejam tau!sengal kan?

oleh itu kwn2,tlg igt level mane korg parking,number kt tiang2 berdktn spy korg x sesat cm kitaorg n kene byr autopay utk parking 2 kali..haha!

nway,its a great day!korg sgt best.thanx to kak yu,nads & jo!love u guys~

There are something came to your life which is undefinable, unpredictable, cannot be understand, can't be explained and sometime, not for real.
Allah always got His own reason for every single thing that happened.
Think and rethink.